“It’s so difficult to describe depression to someone who’s never been there, because it’s not sadness. I know sadness. Sadness is to cry and to feel. But it’s that cold absence of feeling — that really hollowed-out feeling.”— J.K. Rowling
Being a sufferer of depression myself has provided an opportunity to help others. I understand the silence and utter, complete isolation that plays out behind hellish mental prison bars. In my opinion, anyone who judges those who suffer from this affliction have simply never experienced it.
Either chronic or brought on by an event, depression symptoms range from mild to severe, life-ending pain.
Imagine you are locked in a square, soundproof room with gray walls, floor and ceiling. There is no furniture or internal lights. Black loneliness. However, there are two, tiny windows side by side at the far end. Looking out, you see your loved ones leading their normal lives. You scream and pound on the walls, searching for a door. But they either can't hear you or simply ignore your pleas for help.
Those windows are your eyes, leading to a world of pain and helplessness if only someone would look deep enough.
I began to experience depression almost 15 years ago. Growing up, my symptoms grew worse until my mom encouraged me to find help when I was 20. I began to see a therapist and went for sessions off and on for two years.
Therapy isn't a magic bullet and one must keep in mind that therapists/psychiatrists are imperfect like the rest of us. Their college degrees provide a clearer, more informed opinion of the brain but can't account for the uniqueness of each patient and his/her experiences. What helps one person may not satisfy another. Sifting through my therapist's suggestions and observations, I found what worked for myself and subsequently received valuable tools that I needed to start a new life.
Once depression sufferers begin to understand why their mental pain is happening then they can move forward, one shaky, weak step at a time.
If you suffer from depression/suicidal thoughts or suspect someone you know needs help, I have put together a list of depression resources to help you find hope. Visit the page below for quick help or visit one of the therapy websites to find a therapist/psychiatrist near your location.
My website page--Do You Need Help?
National Suicide Prevention Hotline --1-800-273-8255